Father’s day is coming up next weekend. I am lucky, grateful, and thankful to say I had a wonderful, loving relationship with my dad. But this year, it is my first father’s day without one. Out of all the firsts I have experienced this year, his birthday and holidays, father’s day seems like the hardest so far (but I am not quite done with the year of firsts). It is a silly Hallmark holiday, but simply put, it's a day earmarked to celebrate a father, and mine is no longer physically around for the first time.